Lyrics | Something Changed lyrics

I don’t know what happened.

I woke up this morning and things were different.

Things have shifted.

Things were different.

I had the urge to create, paint, work, live, love, laugh, cry, scream…All all rolled into one.

I think I may have inhaled too much Rust Oleum last night while painting my table.

I had God tell me the other days, the other bleak days that are behind me, “You’ve got to snatch (he used ‘snatch’ and not ‘take’) back what is yours”.

I answered him: “How do you snatch back what you can’t grab?”

There was silence. No direct answer.

Ok. Seems like I had to figure it out for myself.

I proceeded with my morning. Feeling the change but not understanding it.

I dropped Miss C off at her Field Day today with much heartache, since I could not stay. I had taken a few days off to attend to her health and I couldn’t bare another day. I saw all the parents stay and cheer for their kids and I felt like crap.

It sucks to be a working mom sometimes.

But then I understood.

Then the answer came, right when I was feeling guilty for not being a better mom.

“How do you snatch back what you can’t grab?”

YOU JUST DO IT.

In the most aggressive, powerful, no holds barred, this means war and I’m not gonna take it anymore type of way.

I was going to snatch back my daughter, even if it meant my own life. I AM going to snatch back her health, her life, OUR life, MY health, OUR happiness and I am going to declare war on all the thoughts, feelings, things, people, that will try to come into our lives and take what doesn’t belong to them, that come in and try to make me feel like a crappy mom, like I haven’t done enough.

I’VE DONE MY PART AND I’VE DONE IT THE BEST THAT I CAN DO.

AND THAT’S GOOD ENOUGH FOR US.

So before I pulled out, I found my camera in my backpack, went back to the park, marched with my daughter into the field. I took her picture, hugged her and made sure she knew I loved her more than anything in this world.

I’d be lying if I told you I left feeling satisfied and happy and content.

I still felt a little guilty.

But something changed.

I felt empowered.

And even though I don’t deserve all the wonderful things that God has put and continues to place in our lives, they are ALL MINE.

AND I’M TAKING SNATCHING THEM BACK.

PS...

Today my Best Friend in the Whole Wide World and the hottest future momma that ever walked on this planet (cuz Lord knows I wasn't the hottest future momma) turns Twenty something...

I ain't saying the something to still hold on to a bit of dignity...

I know she reads this, so...here goes:

I love ya little lady...and I wish you the best birthday ever...may God bless you very very much and your little "muppet" (@ copyrighted term) too!!!

Hallelujah sweet baby Jesus...it's spring....

which only means one thing in my book:

BAAAAAAAAAAASEEEEEEEBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLL


Billy Crystal was signed to play a game with the Yankees and I've got plans to visit the stadium one last time in August right before it closes forever........

What do you think about a flyer that invites you to a week long church event...but it's backside proudly announces a new Bar and Grill joint....

Talk about mass advertising...

No, I've haven't been swiped off the blogger hemisphere...

I've had a long weekend.
And NOT in a good way.

I have a sick child on my hands.

Sick children are NOT fun.

Sick-hallucinating-on-deadly-anti-biotics is NOT FUN AT ALL.

Ok. I'm lying.

Maybe it was a bit funny.

Especially the part where she screamed she needed "more cold now" and threw herself on the floor in front of the A/C.

Or the part where she demanded "ice...ICE NOW FOR MY EXPLODING BRAINS!"

I kid you not the girl is gonna win us an OSCAR.

The part I liked the most was when she mentioned bunnies and punches and was hot and cold all in a period of 30 seconds.

And who can forget the biggest proof of our love-hate relationship.

"GOOOO...LEAVE MOMMA...LEAVEEEEEE!!!!"

"NOOOO...DON'T LEAVE ME MOMMA...PUHLEEEEEEESE!!"

Antibiotics are from hell...and she keeps spitting out the Nystatin....

She's still sick as I type right now, but for a momma who has gotten about 4 hours of sleep these past few days, it's good to be at the office.