I've been a bit out of tune.

Been substituting my usual posts for lots of pics in an effort to find something to amuse you folk with, since I've been on some sort of silent strike for quite some time.

My life has been under construction this past month.
Things have moved at the speed of light and I've kept quite hush about everything in hopes of not to spook it all away.

I understand that I can't spook this away.

And I won't.

At least I'm praying that I won't.

Things were kinda of in a 'pause' mode. Nothing much was happening. Everything was at a standstill.

September 2, 2006.

And I quote, Liquid Swordz, "When the Emcees Came"

"...that was the night everything changed..."

That night I had my re-encounter with True.
I had not seen him in almost 5 years.
And it seems like nothing had changed between us. No awkwardness, no shyness..we picked up where we had left off.

And it was all good.

As many of you could probably tell or guessed, we started hanging out and things kind of took off from there.

In a good way.

We confessed that this wasn't new to either of us. Way back when we used to hang out, we had feelings for one another, but neither said anything back then.

It isn't a coincidence that time brought us back together.
I have never believed in coincidence.

Along with him, and pardon my mushiness, has come something else...peace.

I can't remember how long it's been since I've been at peace, with me, with my world, with everything.

I've started to go to church again. Not because he goes to church. We clearly made that clear. I've started going to church because I felt I needed to. I felt there was an emptiness I needed to reconcile, that I needed to fill up with something.

I don't know, yet.
I know I needed/need a place where I can go and forget and think and love and live and be.

I'm not saying that tomorrow I'm gonna post I'm a 'born-again' Christian.
I've been down that road.

My point of view and perspective has changed.
I've gone through many experiences this past month, on all levels.
And many obstacles have begun to surface.
But as True says:

"When you are most happy, the obstacles will come."

I hear that.

And I'm holding on tight.

Because what I feel I don't wanna forget and let go of.

I think, oddly enough that True was placed for an ulterior motive and he is just a great bonus to this all.

And like one of his song's says:

"This may be the last call".

The last call to my happiness, to my future, to my peace, to my life.
And I just got on that train and I'm not turning back.

So now, we are officially a couple. A couple that does 'chilling at my crib' on the weekends, church on Sunday and baseball games during the week. We get each other, we feel comfortable together, and for the first time in a while, things are looking up....and I look forward to getting up and getting my life in gear.

So, today, October 3rd, 2006, I Mary P. declare that I am in love.

I am in love with everything that surrounds me.


I lied. Not everything, because Vader is still driving me up a wall.

But her time will come. Soon enough.

For now, I'm content with the love of my peeps.

That's enough for my lil' heart....

So go out and tell someone u luv them...

Go on now.

I know I'm going to.

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