Yeah well sometimes Mary P. misses being Mary P.

After all, where would this blog be if it wasn't for the brilliant mind of the psycho-wacky-mom-with-no-brakes, Mary.

And Mary occasionally left the building....

And hardly was ever in it....

And it seems like lately Mary P. is moonlighting as Martha Stewart....cooking, doing community stuff, letting people cross in front of her, and even baking cookies to share with the homeless...

Ok..that last part was a stretch.
But it could be true.
She has started a path of good will.

Sometimes.
Mary just wants to be bad.

She wants to just tell some people to shut the fuck up and leave her alone.
She wants to run over the pedestrians who think they are sacred cows and have the right to cross when the light is green....for Mary!
She wants to tell people: You know what?! I'm not a crappy mom, but sometimes I like to spank Miss C and lately, I enjoy going out without her.


Sometimes in the middle of all the God loving activities she's driven herself into, she wants to say "yeah , well fuck this...I'm out".

Sometimes in middle of a service, while everyone is praying, and she should be too, she can't help but concentrate on her shaking leg and the underwear that is creeping up her butt.

She tries.

But sometimes she just wants to go back.

Where believe it or not, things were more complicated but she was content in her Kaos.

I guess she is masochisstic as well.

She wonders up until what point does she have to sacrifice her sanity for her happiness?

When does trying to be a better person, become into: erasing that old person completely and forcing yourself to be someone you are completely not...?

In the meantime, Mary is out of the building...and she has the urge to like really gulf up some chocolate chip cookies, blast her horn and be a smart ass...

So sue her.

Thought of the day:
Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.--Dr. Suess

Don't compromise yourself. You are all you've got.--Janis Joplin

There is a thin line between making others happy and losing your identity..one false step can quickly erase that line...Mary P.

Thank u.